Just don't :')

the things that i'm hate the most is the sweet words . i'm not the one that are can easily make a decision about my own feeling . 

yeah i don't .

 i'm not into a serious relationship because for me , keep your love , hope and sweet words for the special person that are really yours . 

A relationship that are legal on GOD eyes and get a bless from a parents . For me , the word "sayang" or love brings a deep meaning . 

Don't easily confess that words if you are not sure or just for fun because it can hurt other people heart . Our feeling or the jobs that are related to our heart is very complicated . because our heart is thinnnn . Just like a paper .
Once it torn , it's cannot be fix . yeah , our heart can be fix but it's take time .

"it's just that I don't want to be somebody's crush . 
If somebody likes me , I want them to like the real me , not what they think I am . 
And I don't want them to carry it around inside . 
I want them to show me , so I can feel it too ."

 Sometimes the ignorance and all the secretive personalities can hurt me . 

But all the cares , attention and honestly also can bleed inside . woo , big wounds . Maybe behind all of this is my mistake . sort of choosy ? nope . just don't wanna be hurt or hurting . But , in the end .. i'm being hurt . 

it's okey .

 Because i love u . ahakss . 

Line from divergent when Four unconsciously attempt to kill Triss  . Just don't try to step a back because i will step a back from both of you . Hey hey , from now you are my crush . hihhi .
 Give up on all this . Too tired to think . Just focus on what am i wan't to reach . 

About love?

 i do love myself and our friendship .

 Ignorance hurt me because i need an answer and attention from you . So i thinks that you are not serious . 
When someone having a serious talk with you , don't take it easy . because words are the thing that are uneasy to grab but it need to be wisely think of it . 

All those memory cannot be erased .

 It needs to be kept . Take it as a life lesson to be a big grown girl . i wont cry . huh . You had a big ego on your head babe . 

My own principle

 " don't easily let your tear fall down because it too expensive. Let it drop off for something that worth it " .

owh . i realise that we are good friend now and forever will be :)

Don't let the old memory become an obstacle between our friendship . There are no bad things between a good thing . 

Be positive .

Be bright . 

We are strong enough to face all the obstacle in the future .

Never give up on anybody . Miracles happen every day.

"I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. 
And maybe we'll never know most of them . 
But even it we don't have the power to choose where we come from , we can still choose where we go from there ."

p/s : Remember , i'm not hate you .